a girl and her dreams

I had this dream about a week ago about my ability to sense what others are thinking and feeling, and I have been letting it rest in me since, just touching on it here and there. Yesterday was Spring Equinox, March 20th, 2026 and in the morning between 6am and 8am before Spring actually began I came to full lucidity. So this was a span of a week working up to the message.

In the first dream I was in my city here where I live and there were a lot of bricks (which there are in reality) where I was meandering – I was in Market Square, you can look it up if you like, it’s pretty.

I was keeping to myself mostly and trying to avoid this virus, it was hitting everyone around me. Some thought it was measles, others a mystery virus. No one knew if it was life threatening, I knew it was just a dream.

I ended up catching it, and to be honest I was curious about how I would feel in my dream with this bug. Well, the first sensation was somewhat like a cold sore on my mouth, a strong tingling a lot more powerful than a regular cold sore in reality. There was no pain.

I began to think that this was actually a part of my brain, I have been studying neuroscience on my own for decades, so it felt more like a part of my brain that was sick. I settled on the fact that this could actually be my dream guides way of telling me that I need to express some things out of my mouth – like say them to someone or send them.

The bricks were important as well; they were telling me I need to “brick through” some unnecessary barriers. I’m at such a height now in my healing journey and I want to protect the reassembled parts of myself, so I have been avoiding trying new things. I think it’s time to remove those barriers and work my way past the “walls”, the bricks.

Let me dive deeper into the city, I have had dreams of this city I live in since I was a child which I’m writing more on in my book. I have had this map in my dreams, of the city I live in, and for a very long time I have been adding to it. My memory has always been a highly functioning part of my brain when it comes to dreams, but put me in an exam, it just wants to shut down. I love talking about this kind of stuff because it’s powerful.

Navigating this city in my dreams is like travelling back in time or into the future, like travelling in a book or a movie. Sometimes it’s just like it is in real life and other times it is more elaborate. Dream mapping is very satisfying. I almost can’t tell if I am in a dream sometimes, it’s that real.

So that was a week ago. And then it was Spring Equinox, and I’m writing this whole entry after seeing a stunning crescent moon hanging from a clear sky as the first Spring evening welcomed us to the new season.

My last winter dream was just as the season was turning here in my part of the world and I was again in my city, just a few blocks away (so a lot closer than downtown) and I felt very connected to my self.

I was in a parking lot surrounded by angels, they didn’t have any determined gender, but appeared like men (likely because that’s how I see my higher powers most of the time, even if they aren’t men, the women still have very masculine features because I feel like I have very masculine – everything. I identify as a very masculine, boy-ish being a lot of the time) so these were parts of me.

They drove to this Walmart parking lot, it was sunny and warm. When I finally started to see them clearly through my car door I realized they came to protect me and guide me home. Like real home. Where I am from originally before this planet. I saw them through a different lens, a dream lens, and they weren’t physical, of course, but I could see them. They’re eyes, their sight was vastly different from humans. One in particular stood out as very intelligent and focused on certain parts of my life that I have needed help with.

I got home. I haven’t been home all my life, which I am writing more about in my book (please be advised I’ll be mentioning my book a lot) and it was very emotional.

I saw myself cutting the tips of my hair and I couldn’t help but start crying and I asked myself if I could hug her. Of course, it was okay and I just held myself. The crying was kind of muffled, only I could feel it and hear it.

Since then, and it’s now been 36 hours, I have been shifting in my vision in this whole area, I even went to Walmart to get a garbage can and just said thanks and opened up a new line of communication with higher power. I’m tired. I’m adjusting and interpreting. I’ve cried a few times and had a little power nap today to keep these emotions and energies in place within me.

This is a level of autonomy that is very important in dream growth work, and often we aren’t able to connect this intimately with our selves or our guides, because of distractions, stress etc. Building up is absolutely essential. This week has been exhausting, and I have been extremely homesick. It is important to let go though, and find our paths in this world. Home will be there when I get there. I think these two dreams were telling me that being home sick can lead to a lack of self expression, and my guides were there to say that I need to “get better”.

I feel they are very close right now. They have been there for me all my life (more in my book) and right now this is a really important time of sharing here, writing and learning to outwardly express my knowledge, my gifts, my passion. The parts of the brain that are active during dreaming are a lot different than in waking life, that will be what I write about in my next post.

I am off work this entire week, other than one small 1 hour commitment. I will be doing a lot of dream work, research and yoga/meditation.

This includes dreams! It’s so amazing looking back and writing about what I have been keeping to myself for my whole life…while now sharing things as they happen. It’s like a 180.

a girl and her dreams

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